Tuesday, August 25, 2015

What's been going on?

I thought 2015 was going to be a phenomenal year for me. Every year I make a goal list and this was the year for me to accomplish all of them! My weight loss goal, my reading goal, and the dreams I had for my marriage. Unfortunately, this has been one of the most difficult years of my life. 

In the beginning of May my husband walked out on me. He told me Monday night he "was done" and while I was at work on Tuesday he packed his stuff and moved in with his parents. It is one of the most devastating things I have ever experienced. He would not talk to me and asked for time to think things through. I still don't understand a lot of what happened during that time. 


I have been devastated. I never thought he would do this or treat me this way. He was my best friend, my husband. We were together 13 years and would have been married 7 years in October. Brandon walked out and will hardly talk to me. He even filed for a divorce on my birthday. It has been hell to go through all of this these past few months and to be honest I didn't want to write about it because I didn't think he would go through with it. I hoped he wouldn't, but our divorce will be final soon. 


I am not going to lie... this has been awful. However, one night while sitting at my Mom's dining room table sobbing I told her one my blessings during all of this. "You did a really good job! People really like me!" I have the most amazing family and friends. They have all been here for me. I don't know what I would do without all of their love and support. 

I know I still have a long way to go. There will be times where I am doing okay, other times where I don't think I can do it anymore, and other times where I am doing great. As I have learned it is all part of the process. Everyday is a new day. And you know what? I am going to be okay. 

6 comments:

  1. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Your stronger than you realize and with God at your side you will get through this and you will be okay. Know that I am here for you always!!

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  2. You're going to be more than okay, sweetie! You are one of the strongest people I know. As much as it sucks now, I fully believe that you are going to come out the other side of this even better and stronger for knowing what you can survive and really knowing what makes YOU happy and healthy. :)

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    1. Thank you! I appreciate you being there for me.

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  3. I am so sorry you're going through this. It sounds even harder because there doesn't seem to be any closure if he's not even willing to speak to you. ((hugs))

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    1. Thank you. It has been difficult. I am trying to get through it one day at a time.

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